Have you ever felt like your life is just stalled?
As you may know a little over a year ago I left my full-time job doing marketing/ event planning to go back to school for a complete career change to physical therapy. Over the past year I’ve been working my way through the prerequisite classes I need to take just to be able to apply to a 3 year Doctorate of Physical Therapy program.
While I knew it would be hard I have to admit I wasn’t ready for how much I miss actually working.
Even though I wasn’t necessarily passionate about my previous job and I know it was the right time for me to leave, I miss waking up each morning with a place to be and a purpose. I miss feeling like I’ve accomplished something at the end of every day. Honestly, I miss feeling like a “real adult”, with real responsibility and getting a paycheck.
I know being in school has it’s purpose and in the long run it may be worth it, but it’s hard to keep that in mind when I’m working through 2 years of fairly boring (sorry but it’s true) prerequisite classes only to be faced with a rigorous application process and if I get in, another 3 years of school.
I have to admit I have been seriously re-thinking all of this recently. It’s been a very frustrating and stressful few weeks which has unfortunately resulted in this feeling of my life being completely stalled. I’m sitting dead in the water unsure of which direction to go.
On the one had I can try to battle through the feeling of unfulfillment that I have being in school and hope that once I actually get to PT school I enjoy it more and end up with a career I love. Or, I can start looking for a job with the skills and experience that I already have and hope I find something that makes me happier than what I was doing before.
I hate this feeling. I feel like it has completely taken over my life and I just wish something would come along that would jumpstart everything and help me to make some decisions.
**AUTHORS NOTE: I know this is quite a different style of post for my blog, but it does help for me to just write my thoughts sometimes and I wanted to share a bit of an explanation for my lack of posts recently. I promise back to regular running/ yoga/ Disney programming tomorrow!